Cheer you up when you were down
Give you gifts, anytime, for any reason or no reason at all
Listen when you want to talk, rant, yell, scream.... anything, and I will always try to listen with an open mind
Share stories of my failures, if you needed something to mock or laugh at
Draw art for you
Wait for you, forever
and always be your adoring fan.

Unfortunately, things along these lines are all I can offer.

I'm not agressive or angry very often, so I cannot fight physically on your behalf
I have been deemed 'Harmless' by all my human friends
I'd rather talk things out that go to blows (as I know I'd lose in a heartbeat)

But I can offer you my support. Message me anytime. I'll always be there to listen.

Tags: helping hand, pacifist, support

My art. My art is my entertainment, my talent, and my no.1 thing I am best at. I think I would probably be in a lot of trouble if my plans to be a professional artist fall through. As such, I am trying out every different media of art (sans preforming arts) to have a "Jack of all trades" kinda thing, art-wise.
To date, I have tried
Adobe Illustrator and Adobe Photoshop (vector and Pixel based programs)
3D Max (3D modeling)
Sewing (Made my own plush, my own pattern)
Ceramics (Sculpting and Wheel, but Wheel and I dont get along all that much) (will take Wheel based classes in next semester, or the one after it)
Almost all types of 2D media (Soft Pastels, Oil paints, Acrylic paints, tempra paints, charcoal, ink, graphite, pencils, coloredpencils, paper pasted on paper... maybe more)
Weaving
Metalwork (Bronze pour, lost wax process, and pewter mold)
~ Which means I have worked in Wax too
Uhhh.... Photography

All those crafty things that I did at daycare....

etc

Tags: writer's block

Dear everyone who shares the house with me,
Yes, I know it is my job to wash the dishes and clean the kitchen.
Yes, I know it can get messy in there.
But for the love of all things! Do you have to just leave your messes there? Can you not be responcible enough to at least TRY to clean up after yourselves? And you wonder why we get ants every now and again?
The crust crumbs are not meant to be left on the countertop. You were making the tart, you can at least clean the crumbs off of your workplace.

I know having a 'clean this up' job is supposed to make me responsible, but really, can you people be responsible too?

I'll clean it up today, but I'm having a talk with all of you tonight. (I dont think much will change, but I want you all to know how unfair this is)

Tags: chores, clean up, responsibility, responsible
Current Location: home
Current Mood: aggravated

I just totally lucked out. Finals for the spring semester next year are the same week as my job thing starts. I'm going to be a Rover at the local Anime Convention. The Con starts friday, and well, if I had a friday class I'd be screwed.
I panicked, thinking I would have to find a different class, but when I got on the registration site, I found that I had no classes on Friday. Just Mon/Wed,Tue/Thu classes. WHOOT!
I'll have a day off every week!

Tags: class, college, job

RASPBERRY CHOCOLATE TART

CRUST:
2 Cups pecans, toasted
1/3 cup brown sugar
¼ teas cinnamon
4 Tbsp butter

FILLING:
6 oz cream
6 oz bittersweet chocolate

TOPPING:
2 packages fresh raspberries
¼ cup seedless raspberry jam
chocolate curls

CRUST: grind pecans in blender blend in cinnamon and sugar and stir in melted butter. Press into 9” tart pan. Bake at 375° until set and lightly browned, about 30 minutes. Set to cool.

FILLING: boil cream and stir in chocolate, cut into small pieces. Stir until chocolate is melted and smooth. Pour into crust and chill about an hour until slightly set.

TOPPING: arrange raspberries on top of filling pressing in slightly. Melt jam and brush over berries to give them a shine. Top with a few chocolate curls.

Tags: chocolate, raspberry

So today failed my not-so-high expectations.

I went to school, attended my only class of the day, and headed up to get lunch. Lunch was meat pizza cassarol. (wheel pasta w/ some red sause and thick sausage slices.) It was a bit too spicy, and the cafiteria was out of ranch and italian dressing for the salad it came with.
I eat a few bites, then give the rest to a friend and head home.

I get home around 1:30, and no one is there, of course. Mom stops by for a restroom break, as her current job-site is just a few blocks away (mom works for the city, as a public works inspector. She watches the guys work and makes sure they are doing things correctly)
Anyway, she stops by and tells me that her guys are having trouble, and that my brother and she may not get home until 5. We make plans for dinner, then she leaves.

Around 4 she stops by again and lazes around until 4:45, when I promted her to get back to work. (You said you'd be back by five, and it's almost that time now, but how can you when you left the guys unsupervised? You'll have to go out there and stay longer.)

So she leaves and I wait for my brother to get home. I wait for an hour, 5 and 5:30 coming and going, and still no sign of him.
Finally, at 6:08, Mom comes in the door with KFC in her hands and tells me that she had picked up my bro and they were at the job-site together.
She sets down the food at the table and I find out that she didnt get me anything. Just food for herself and brother.

Now, I'm feeling a bit left out. What about those dinner plans? Why didnt you think of calling me so that I knew you had my bro and that I was on my own for dinner? Did you ever think I might want some food too?
I mean, I'm part of this family, arent I?

Tags: disappointed, family
Current Mood: gloomy

Good:
I haz a boyfirend. He is so cute and awkward and shy. 
I haz a new pokemon plush
My room is cleaner
Web design midterm done http://toolkit.cs.ohlone.edu/~gen50/midtermfinal
I'm getting good grades in almost all my classes (except 3d modeling. I'm getting about a C )

Bad: 
I caught a cold and think I may have passed it on to Chris
My Team Magme Club on DA is practically dead. People join but almost never submit anything >.<
I'm not sure if any of my muses are active. I sometimes hear Suzaku, and I've been trying to get back into contact with Ryura, but I think Garret is a lost cause. Might have to play Pokemon Ranger again to bring him back. Hiten seemed to be interested in becoming a muse, but I havent heard from him since wendsday, so...

So not much to report

Tags: boyfriend, life

I feel abandoned, rejected, and discouraged. One of my friends has made plans to come over to my house, twice. Twice we have made plans. Twice she cancels. The first time I didnt know she had cancled and waited an hour at Ohlone waiting for her, due to lack of shared contact info, and this time, she called me up. The first time she cancled because her parent's told her to. I think this time is the same case.
I'm not sure I can trust any plans we may make in the future. This causes me to have a noticable weight on my heart, and a dampening of any urge to make get-together plans with her or anyone else. I hear my friends making plans to get together, and I feel so left out, but I feel as if , if I tried to attend, something would happen to make it mess up. 

I wish things would go as planned. Just once....

Tags: ditched, lonely, rejected, sad
Current Mood: rejected

 How can parents do such things? 
My Online Buddy gets grounded evey so often for the lamest reasons. (She once got grounded for telling her mom that the grill was dirty) I dont know what she did this time, but now her dad is threatening to sell her computer, gaming consoles, and art supplies, as well as rip up her artwork.
Note that they life around 4 to 5 miles away from any city. And they are thinking about homeschooling her.
Now, if I lived so far away from the closest city, I would want some way to contact the rest of the world. People are touchy about addresses these days, so writing letters to my buds would be out of the question. (I wouls probably still need the net for getting those addersses too.)

I can leave the house all I want during summer and communicate with people, as I live in a city. She probably can leave the house, but because of her home's location, has to get her folks to drive her to town if she wants to talk to "not-family" people. 

Humans are social creatures, but her parents havent realized that today's generation are probably more social than they are, and need ways to interact with others. 

And shredding her artwork? That is messed up.

Well, the vet said that Mony needs to be fattened up (so we feed him wet cat food three times a day) I'm starting to get sick of the smell. She also said that we need to use Saline solution in his eyes at least once a day.
She seems very optomistic that Monty will have his eyes open within two weeks of treatment. I dont think she reconed with the fact that I am not a professional vet, and dont have the experience of putting drops in his eyes. She had trouble with that as well, but managed to see that, yes, Monty does have eyeballs. (I havent seen any, but I'll take her word on it)

Smaug is a funny guy. He walks over my shoulder to a pillow and GAPES for no apparent reason.

Draco Died of old age on the 15th at about 8:30. We were afraid he was impacted or something, so we called our vet. They were closed for the weekend, so we tried to find another vet that looked at lizards. The closest one was in Monteray -nearly 2 hr drive + 30 min of rubberneckers because of a crash- so we took him there.
He was gasping and taking deep breaths once every minute, and after we left him there the breaths were fewer and fewer. I'll mis my big baby. 
It was the first time Ive cried in a long time. 

Tags: bearded dragon, death, lizard, reptile, vet